I feel as if my life is falling apart. I’m in my sixties, married to mean, belittling person with no money of my own or ability to drive. My home crafting business used to thrive but has fizzled out. I am not physically well, and I care for a large number of feral cats who keep having kittens. I can’t catch them all, and even if I could, I can’t afford to spay any more of them than I already have.
I’m pretty much alone. I haven’t any family or friends.
Any help you can give will be deeply appreciated.
Thank you, N.
You are not alone. We see you. We hear you. We love you. And we would say to you that you do not have to do this all alone. You have given so much of yourself, for so long, that you have become an empty cup. For so long, you have cared for everyone else, and done so little for yourself. So the first thing we want you to do is to take some time out today, tomorrow, every day this week and do something that makes you happy. Something you love. Relax. Take a bath. Eat chocolate. Read a romance novel. Window shop. Walk in the woods. Whatever it is that will nurture your soul, do that. That’s step one.
Step two. Call in your angels. Call in your guides. Ask them for what you are needing, ask them for help. Say it out load. Mean it. Call to them. Once you have done that, call in your earth angels. Reach out to your community for help. Find a local no-kill shelter and ask them for help catching the mother cat and spaying her. Re-home the cats you can let go of. Keep the ones that mean everything to you. There are people out there who care as much these cats as you do. Connect with them. Let them help you. You have nothing to be ashamed of, no one can do everything on their own.
Step three. Rekindle your craft. Say to yourself every morning that you are living in a bright new world. Today is the beginning of your future. How will you begin? The retail world has changed significantly in the last few years. Use your phone or a cheap digital camera and get your lovely items up on etsy.com. Sell direct. Sell in quantity. You can do this.
Step four. Recognize that it is not money or health or cats that holds you in a relationship that makes you unhappy. Recognize that it is fear. Dive deep into that fear. Examine your shadow side. Examine all the things that frighten you, that anger you, that make you sad or vulnerable. Recognize that your weaknesses and flaws are strengths, too, and then use them to understand what it is you are really wanting and needing to do. Emerge from the dark with a greater understanding of what really makes you tick, and remember that age is just a number, and that you are no closer to dying today than you were at 20. Nothing is certain – live for today. Chase joy. Chase bliss. Don’t wait. Don’t settle. Don’t give up or give in. Remember who you are. Be who you came here to be.
You are blessed.
We love you.
In love and light,