Dear Eden, I feel sad – I feel lost & paralyzed by my love and —-i dont know what to call it? How do I know if I should power through growing pains or give up? Thanks, G.
You are all heart. You are so wide open and full of love, you feel as if you will burst. Your heart chakra is wide, wide open, you have no walls, no sheilds, no barriers, and you are filled with Christ energy. And yet you hurt. You wonder, how can this be so? How can I feel so good, and yet so bad at the same time? The pain stems from an unwillingness to release your past pains, your past traumas. You still harbor old wounds that are affecting everything you think and believe at this time. It is time to release them. It is time to forgive ALL that has gone before, so that you can receive ALL that is coming now. You feel the pain of all the world coming in to you, because your heart is open yet your mind is filled with judgements and opinions. Let it all go. Allow your self to feel the love you know, the love you harbor. Forget the pain that surrounds you. Ignore the pain that others are feeling, the cries of the hungry, the woes of the ocean. This is not your pain. These are not your woes. Allow yourself to float above. If you have to, turn off the TV for a month, remove yourself from news services and the chatter of others. Be in yourself. You are happiest when you are surrounded by beauty and quiet — find places that will put you in the middle of it. Be in nature. Get some energy work. Join some healing circles, go to a museum, an outdoor classical concert. Just lie on your back and stare at the clouds. You are one with the world. Let in the joy. Let the suffering go. It does not belong to you. It is not your pain. We do not want you to power through anything, or give up anything. We want you to just be at peace. Be in the moment, and be at peace, at one with your true self.
You ARE blessed. You are OK. It will all work itself out, focus on the good, and the rest will follow.
Blessings, blessed one.