I came across your site and as always this is where spirit lead me. I have a question, not sure how to word it, but I have been on the spiritual path for quite some time and I feel as I am accelerating then all of a sudden I am overcome by negative thoughts and physical issues. As of now I have gotten extremely heavy and my digestion, hormones, thyroid etc. is all off balance, and have become allergic to food and supplements that might actually help me. I have a tendency to be a sponge for others which I thought I healed but I guess not. My passion is to step full time into energy work but for now I stay at a corporate job that brings no joy and am surrounded by very dense people. I have had a full open radiation of my crown only for it to be closed and I would feel others energies and as they spoke of negativity I would get hit above my head etc. and now that open radiation feeling has been gone since 2013.
What can I do to help myself to go forward and not absorb others energies, I feel there is something always stopping me like I was tricked into some sort of contract, (not sure). Or maybe none of this and you sense something else.
Thank you so much for any insight.
Love, Light & Laughter
We do not see a karmic contract that is hindering you. You are a lightworker, an earth angel and so you do have a natural tendency to take on the pain of others. Most lightworkers work in some capacity or another to help transmute and process clearings for all of mass consciousness, and this can manifest as physical disease. It is important to recognize that this is what is happening, that this is a global phenomenon, and not to focus on the individual negativity or angst that you feel from one person or another. Begin to view these negative people or situations simply as triggers or signposts from the universe. When one pops up, say to yourself, “oh, here is something I need to clear.” Shield yourself, and clear the energy. There are many, many ways to do this, but one of the simplest is bathing yourself in an orb of light of the color(s) of your choosing, pushing it out from yourself to create a buffer zone of comfort. Visualize the clearing, and then let it go, knowing you are protected.
In terms of the allergies, these pop up when we are sensitive to a situation, not the item itself. Sometimes, it is a past or parallel life trauma that is triggering our discomfort. Meditate on the situation and try to see the root of it. Seeing and knowing is understanding, and understanding brings release and clearing.
When one’s soul consciously identifies a situation that is unpleasant, and one persists within it, the discomfort will only grow worse. It is one thing to remain in a situation that is not so great, but not fully realize, but once the soul knows that you know, both the body and the soul will feel somewhat betrayed by the mind/ego that is ignoring them and what it knows, and so they will work together to change your mind. Your willingness to surround yourself with negativity at work and in life is another component to why your body is having issues, basically attacking itself to get your attention.
Be gentle with your self. Take time to nurture yourself. Be compassionate with your self above all others, only then can you truly be of service.
You are blessed.
Blessings of Love and Light